There's always some kinda rush that drives me to do things drastically and yup there's one behind this one too! There is always so much happening in my mind from random ideas, good and bad memories, instant thoughts, plans about my life, my stupidity, my mistakes (may be blunders is the right word), my expectations from life, my conversations with myself and God (I know many oh you would find this weird), and just sooooo much that I find it difficult to retain all of it in this tiny brain of mine. Believe it or not, my life really has these phases. Things are usually going good and all of a sudden there is this phase when everything starts going wrong one after the other, and I mean it when I say everything. That’s when my thought process gets even more intense and I find it difficult to handle. I want to shout, I want to throw things around, I want to hate everyone around and feel detached from all pain, I want to stop existing, I want to hug my mom so tight that I feel distanced from this cruel world, and amidst all this pain, I suddenly hear a voice – a voice that tells me that I’m not born to lose – I was taught to fight it out, that I’m not born to give up – that’s for losers to do and that I’m born to do my best coz I was taught that life is play which we direct and how spectacular it turns out to be has more to do with us than people who watch it with a less keen eye or choose to criticize it. And then I see this poster on my sister’s closet that says “After every sad day, comes a glad day”. Life is not always about coincidences, they say there’s a thin line between co incidence and faith.
And then I wake up the next morning, more focused than ever, more determined than ever, and put my foot down on things I want to do! Things that would make my life more fruitful and things that’s make me feel better! And then…You’re right! Blogging was one on my list!
I know it’s been too much of me by now! Blabbering as usual about everything I encounter on this planet…But I guess that’s how this space is gonna be and that’s why it is aptly titled – Mélange. Welcome to this space, where you’d see more of me each time, may be a lil different that what you expect to see. But that’s me and this is how it’s gonna be! Tc. Ciao.
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